The past few weeks have been a real struggle for me. My husband and I have been dealing with infertility issues caused by my PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), for almost as long as we’ve been married (we just celebrated our 10th anniversary last July). In 2003 I was diagnosed with PCOS, although it was obvious [...]
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Our Infertility Story, and Our Latest Plans
Posted in Infertility, tagged Infertility, PCOS on January 18, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Relief
Posted in Emotions, Infertility, Me, Personal Growth on September 24, 2011 | 1 Comment »
For the first time in months, maybe years even, I have felt totally at peace and content the last few days. The miscarriage rocked my world much deeper than I wanted to admit, even to myself. Now I feel at peace. I’m not really sure what brought it on, perhaps it’s a series of things. Our house is [...]
Grieving…. or Perhaps Not Grieving
Posted in Infertility, tagged Infertility, PCOS on August 5, 2011 | 1 Comment »
Ever since the miscarriage I have been grumpy and sad. I thought maybe it was the hormone fluxuations, but I realized today that I have totally been avoiding dealing with any of it, and it is causing problems for me. I’ve been trying hard to focus on the fact that I ovulated, but the fact [...]
Posted in Infertility, tagged Infertility, PCOS on July 15, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Wednesday I had a miscarriage. I didn’t even know I was pregnant, but I miscarried. I still don’t know where I am on that fact emotionally, because I spent the last two days focused mostly on the physical (the miscarriage caused very, very bad bleeding on Wednesday, and a bit on Thursday). I’m sad that [...]
I Would Die for That…
Posted in Infertility, tagged Infertility on May 12, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
I saw this on another blog and it really touched me. It reminded me just how lucky we are to have had a chance to have a child, and also at the same time, I want another almost as badly as we wanted him. This song is perfect.
Not Mad Anymore
Posted in Infertility on May 9, 2011 | 2 Comments »
I just needed to say, I’m not mad at God anymore. Friday was a horrible day, but by Friday night we had developed a plan and I felt much better. It’s so nice to be able to vent on here, where real live people might be able to see it
It Happened Again…
Posted in Infertility, tagged Infertility, PCOS on May 6, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Another month of having my heart ripped out. Actually I almost wish it had been ripped out because then it wouldn’t hurt so very badly. All because I allowed myself to hope, to dare to hope that this month we had a chance. Another month, another negative test, and no period. That means not only [...]
H.O.P.E. Class, and a Jumble of Emotions
Posted in Infertility, Parenting, Personal Growth on March 28, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Last Saturday was one of the HOPE classes, and ever since it I have been a jumble of emotions. The class was very interesting, and I learned many things I did not know. It was also very emotional, I spent half of it with tears running down my eyes, sometimes from the stories Tracy told, [...]
My continuing quest to conquer PCOS
Posted in Infertility, Quest for Wellness, tagged GETTING HEALTHY, Infertility, PCOS on November 21, 2010 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve been on a quest for a number of years to find a way to get my PCOS under control, and so far have not had much luck. I did have some luck with an herbal supplement called “fertili-blend”, it regulated my cycle for about 3 months straight, but it seems to have stopped working [...]
Infertility… cont.
Posted in Infertility, tagged Infertility on April 25, 2010 | Leave a Comment »
Today the infertility wound is raw and gaping. Infertility is an issue I deal with everyday. Not a day passes that I don’t think about the baby we want to have who has not yet joined us. Everday it burns, but somedays, the wound is worse than others. Somedays it is at the back, today [...]
