Posts Tagged ‘Goals’

My heart is so overwhelmed with all of the blessings I’ve had lately that I just had to take a moment to share with you the incredible things that have been happening.

A couple of months ago, I found a wonderful marketing instructor names Sandi Krakowski .  I was excited because I could immediately see that she could teach me the keys I had been missing to get my business really prospering.  On top of that, she’s a Christian with beliefs quite similar to my own, AND she is a homeschooling momma!  I figured if anyone could understand how busy I feel and how to balance it all, it would be her.

Little did I know how much this woman was going to change my life.  In fact I probably still only have a peak at how much she’s going to affect it, but what has happened already is incredible.  I’ve been listening to her products for more than a month now, and they have not only increased my marketing ability (which I am still really working on), but she has given me the key I’ve been looking for the last few years.  She’s helped me to figure out what I need to be doing .

For a few years I’ve had an idea that I need to be doing something, helping someone, but I really had no idea what to do with that.  I’ve considered a number of options, but none of them really seemed right.  I’ve prayed, searched, tried to ignore it, tried to tell myself I was just being crazy and that there is no way I could ever fidn the time to do any of this in my crazy life.  I saw no way to make it happen in the real world.

Sandi frequently says that the pain of not doing what we are supposed to do often becomes greater than the pain of stepping out into it.  That is exactly what I’ve been dealing with for the last few years.  It has been downright emotionally painful.  I’ve tried to ignore it, but this feeling that I’m not using the gifts God gave me has been a constant and has about driven me bonkers.  It wasn’t for lack of wanting to, but for lack of vision about what to do.

Now I am filled with vision.  God has taken the spark he’s been putting in my spirit for the last few years, and has birthed a concept in my that I won’t let go of.  He has shown me how to make this work, where it can go, and how much I can help people.  He has given me visions and dreams, and set me on fire.  I’m a little frightened about how I will do this, but I’ve conquered bigger things and I know I can do it with His help.  I have visions of coaching people through their troubles, of public speaking (yipes!) to groups and helping them move past their issues.  I’m so fascinated to see what this will grow into and so grateful for the huge opportunity this feels like.

The website I’ve started www.adivinewalk.com is the first step towards that.  I see it becoming so much more than it is, but I will have the patience to take it one step at a time as God directs me.

Those of you who know me off of the internet may see a real change in me.  I feel so light, like a huge weight has been lifted from me.  I honestly feel like crying in relief for what this means.

I know this is the right path.  This path uses the gifts God has given  me, it makes me feel whole and complete.  I can hardly wait to move forward in it and see what He has planned beyond what He has shown me.


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Moving Forward

I’ve been continuing to ponder this urge to really reach out and do something for survivors who are early in their recovery journey.   I have been questioning why this has suddenly come up.  The thought that I would like to do something has come up before, but never quite like this.  So why now?  Where is the all coming from?

What I am realizing though is that for many years I was immersed in the pain, unable to help anyone because I was fighting so hard to keep my head above water (and sometimes downright failing).  When that came to an end, when I finally healed enough that I didn’t feel the pain dragging me under, in fact all of it reached normal memory proportions, rather than nightmare, reliving, etc… I was so relieved to be able to live like a “normal” person, that I have been revelling in it for years!  I have no shame or guilt in this, it has been wonderful.  That isn’t to say there haven’t been the occasional struggles or angst because of the memories, but it has been so far from consuming. 

Now I am ready for the next step.  I am ready to move past “normalcy” into helping others.  I feel strong, capable,  joyful, and empowered.  I want other women to see that moving through it is necessary, it is helpful (albeit painful), and it does have an end, it isn’t a forever thing.  I know that I could blog or such, but I really feel like that is an area that is well covered.  I think women need someone they can talk to, who can listen, who knows what it is like.  I think friends of survivors need someone who can help them understand  what their friends are going through, and how they can help.  I think churches need to know how to handle these situations properly, without causing harm, and the spiritual struggles that survivors go through. 

How do I fit into this though, I just don’t know.  I don’t, quite frankly, even know where to start.

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I feel drawn, compelled even to find a way to reach out to abuse survivors.  It’s something I have often wanted to do, but as of late it has grown stronger and stronger.  I remember a time when I felt like I could barely go on, and would have been so grateful to speak to someone who had been there, moved through that, and developed a “normal” life.  I want to be that for women who are in that place now.  I want to show them that healing is possible, that you can come through it, that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and that with God’s help we can all heal.  I want to share my experiences so that others, not just abuse survivors, but anyone can understand that God is with is even in the darkest of times in our life, and He wants to help us grow, heal, and become who we are meant to be.

The only problem is that I have no idea how to start or where to start.  I know my story can help others heal.  I love to share my story, because I think it helps others better understand God.  I just need the place to start it all.

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This Year’s Goals

I was just writing a post about my new goal of speaking my truth, and realized I have not written this years goals on here, or at least I don’t think I have… if I have please excuse the double post.  The goals I set at the beginning of this year are:

Health:  To continue getting healthier, do the Cellular Healing Diet, Exercise regularly (struggling a bit with this one) and generally improve my health.

Family: To bring greater unity and cohesion to our family, to make our home even more of a loving place and to get rid of the strife we were experiencing early this year (we have already made massively huge strides towards this).

Business : To find new avenues for free and low cost advertising.  To increase the number of products that I offer without adding too much production time to my schedule.  To increase sales by 25%. 

Personal and Spiritual : I didn’t have much set in this area at the beginning of the year, but have since added speaking my truth and further developing my spiritual gifts

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Every year I set goals for the year, some are at the beginning of the year, some get added in as the year passes.  For the past several months I have been setting up within myself for a new goal.  This may sound a little odd, but some goals require much more determination than others.  This is one of those.  I’m calling this my “speaking my truth” goal.  Those who know me know that I am generally a quiet person, unless you are my family in which case you probably think I never shut up LOL…. anyways, I have always enjoyed listening to other people and would much rather listen than talk, which I think is okay, but I’m realizing I have gotten to the point that I really need to do more talking.  I need more friends in my life, and I need to be more verbally open.  Generally I will speak to anyone about pretty much anything, as long as I have something to say, I don’t have a lot of taboo topics, but at the same time, I rarely do talk to anyone about anything, in this is what I’m working to change.  Most importantly, I want to openly discuss my beliefs, the wonderful things God has done in my life, which I realize are beyond what many people have the opportunity to experience, and which I am so grateful for.  I want to open my spirit up and pour forth my truths.  I just need to figure out how to do that now.

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